Soulsong Healing Retreat

‘My experiencing of the Healing Retreat at Soul Song in Reefton. 7 Days of emersion in deep sacred space, in the forest amongst the trees and next to the beautiful flowing river.   Birds singing and the Cicadas calling their songs loudly at times then the quiet as they rest. All in search for healing, understanding acceptance, to know that l fit in and that it’s  possible to belong.  A healing place to be seen and held, a time of all things unfolding . A space to be, how ever l am and not be judged, yet supported by connection and community. And by the animals that l have come to enjoy. The wonder chickens excitted to see me in the morning clucking away and who follow me out of their secure home to roam and forage amongst the grace and earth for food. And our beautiful cat with her wisdom to support people and offer her own healing energy of rest beside one or even resting  like a waited blanket of love and support on you.

Even though lm not able to walk far my view of the daily meditation walk around the forest and at the river allows me to still take part, all meals waiting for us. Then dance and exploring of emotions before diving deep in to the work. A safe sacred space that is formed from the inception and which carries through the week by the group. The safer felt the deeper growth unfolds. Being witnessed seen and understood. I hear the catch cry everything is medicine which my body loves to hear. My bones struggling yet my soul craving for this work, but my fears walk close along side me, my parts jumping up and down trying to protect younger parts. It’s all happening, ever curious often standing at an edge or many edges. Always finding insights growth and feelings of awareness and being in amazement of my experiences.

A night of no sleep of over thinking and a reflection of a day that allowed triggers followed by fears being amplified so l have to get out of bed l grab my blanket and head to the deck it’s around 4am l sit in the dark and breathe in the night and then l look up only to see a sky filled with stars mmm there is light in the night sky, relief absolute relief. My nervous system settles and l see all shapes in the shadow of the trees. Healing in nature goes along way. I feel filled with wisdom and tearful for the insight. My learning happens with the witnessing of another the mirrors of my shadows and mirror l see in others are also in me. Seeing clearer knowing there is always a bigger picture and what l think l need or want is many times different from what l need. Yet trust of myself and the process is the key for me.

This time it was an experience on many levels personal and professional. This time at my edge pushing back l heard these words: It is a risk but you want know until you take the step forward and with that movement happened a deep felt sense was discovered and allow for the integration to follow. So l leave grateful for Phoenix for holding such a sacred space and all she provides and for believing in me when often l  am unable to move to that space. That was when l give up on my self and unable to see away through l realise at those times she holds the light reflecting back to me as a mirror that through the darkness there is light my light. That is ok to have both, that they both are my teaches and show me my possibilities. I keep coming back seeking greater insights and over all the years l have attended the learning continues the growth expanding the old patterns shifting and new knowings discovered.

From the tree that was planted My soul tree l wait to see our growth and l continue to take note my change how ever gently  that may be and feel gratitude to all l met over the week. So l return from the Forrest to the  beach  time to integrate remembering all that’s been and acknowledging THERE IS ALWAYS A BIGGER PICTURE

Thanks Phoenix and all l journey with.’ – Liz Kinnane